InMyMind

Not were I wanted to be at all but I will be there by the 1st hopfully past. All i Wanted on My Birthday was to sleep in but Asshole stayed up till 2. And I am begging to relize certain people who insist they care about you really do not and as long as they get what they need to hell with you.

Sw of ABC 135.6

day 2 of abc diet and done. only 420 cals . Today and next 2 days will be sad as Baby J was born today only lived 3 days Died on the 20th which is my borthday. oh they found more cancer its on my grandpas spine and stomach there trying to give him 1 more year. thats what they said this year one year its not going to be anymore and I will die. Maybe then I will stop eating alltoghter and finally die? I donno. only 134.4 as i gained alot ok 2 pounds back well up and down alot to be turthful. stopping the all out binges is what I need to do so far doing ok. I keep wanting to give up and say I will just purge its easier and faster weight loss but I want to try to do this whole ABC diet its 50 days a long time but i need it. i may allow a little more on my b-day is someone takes me out highly dont I will want to go out or be taken out. I am buying an outfit offline from walmart I am ordering the pants in a 3 and the shirt a medium as even if I get into a 3 I will need a size medium shirt for my boobs as I do not think they will get lower then a C.

SW=135.6

Doing ABC diet. Day 1 Sucesss only had 360 though i could have had 500.

binge binge b inge thats all i did. 135.4lb today and this is were it stops on a lquid fast since 1o will say 11 last night. I will try to stay away from Regular pop I am trying to stick to the Coke Zero and stuff as I hate the taste of Diet Pop.donno how long i am going for maybe untill i hit 130 or so

1030 Calories no purging not a good day. Still fear i will gain alot. maybe just a 1lb hopfully not more . My 2 day fast starts at 7 donno how much it will help buts its got to help some

132.8 if i keep losing like this I will go past my goal. But I have fallin back into the restrict and purge everything i eat cycle. I really do not care I am losing this weight and don’t care.

135.3 till the worst day of my life and my birthday and gw

100 hour fast started yesterday at 5, Its been ok today I find the 1st and 3 or 4th day hardest just got to get to 5  and then only 76 hours left not to shabby id say 137.4 this mornining. if i keep losing like this I may make gw after all on the 20th.

137.6 started a liquid fast yesterday at 5. I seem to be able to do better if I stick to just liquids. IF I get to 133 at the end of my fast which will be wensday at 9 since its a 100 hour fast i think thats right I will check again in a bit but. As long as I weigh 133 I should be able to make the rest.

Gained 5.5lb since i been last on I binged so Much God I am so sorry I promise not to do it agin I really do I am now 138.8 and I am freaking out I am supost to be 126 by August 20. I plan Liquid fast untill the 10th. Then no more then 500 cals god i do not know what i will do if i do not make it I have to I need to I MUST