Rockets in the Sky

7:40 PM

I need to be more strict. I want to fast. But I know I shouldn’t. I know if I push myself to exercise twice a day everyday I will see results. I need to be patient and eat really healthy. But it’s so hard. I can’t stand this. I feel so fat, and disgusting. I just don’t know what to do… I hate being patient. I feel so bloated and gross when I eat. I wish I was just skinny and at that lovely 105 pounds.. for once.

This Is How I Feel…

Jeanne xxx

7:50 PM

So practically, my sister totally screwed up my whole exercise plan for going on Wii Active ! UGGH, STUPID HOE. She took it without even asking and brought it with her to where she lives now. Saying me and my other sister don’t use it enough. I freaking told her I was using it for Wii Active right when school started ! God dammit ! I am pissed. I wish I could just stomp over there and take it.. too bad they live 2 hours away. EFFFF. So now, instead of doing Wii Active everyday after school, I’m doing Turbo Jam//Tony Horton Power Half Hour Collection. I guess it’s sort of good for me.. I mean it’s more advanced then doing Wii Active and burns more calories and works on the whole body a lot more. Least I have more motivation to do it since MY WII IS GONE, and I’m forced to do the other workouts. Oh well I guess. Oh and I found out my Turbo Fire Workout thinger is shipped within 15 days >.< It’s sort of disappointing :/ I really wanted to start it asap. Oh and I took measurements and all that today, I’m just going to say I took them on Monday, cause that’s when I start my workouts and healthy low cal diet thing. So here’s the DISGUSTING stats:

Monday, August 30th, 2010

• Morning Weight: 126 pounds (D; gained from stupid trip to Montana)
• High Thigh- 21.5 inches
• Low Thigh- 16.5 inches
• Thighs Together- 36.5 inches ( This honestly makes me so grossed out)
• Calf- 13.75 inches
• Calves Together- 22.5 inches
• Hips/Above Butt- 32.5 inches
• Butt- 37 inches ( I seriously have a black girls ass, no lie lol)
• Belly Button- 29.7 inches

EWW, looking at these measurements just makes me feel horrible. I can’t wait till these inches and pounds shed off. I remember last year my stomach was 26 inches. Uggh, I can’t believe I let myself gain so much stupid weight ! I’m ready for this challenge, I’m being so strict on myself. Oh and I didn’t bother with arm measurements, my arms are like skinny already, now only if my whole body was. And, chest measurements, well I’m only a 34 B so there’s no point lol, lets just hope that doesn’t shrink o.o But anyways, I have to wake up EARLY tomorrow.. I need to get my stuff together. I might not be updating as often anymore sadly :/ I’m going to be so busy this semester which means a lot of homework.. boooooo ! Tomorrow will be my first day of all this dieting/exercising, I’m excited ! Yay. But, I’m off ! Hope you all are doing amazing ! <33

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

6:10 PM

Well, now that I’m sorta back on track to eating low calories..I went down a pound. It must be all the gross food getting out of my system from going to the states. I didn’t eat much today. I went on a super mini binge, but it wasn’t that bad. This is what I ate today:

• Vector Cereal with Bran Buds/Milk- 300 cal
• Sandwich- 400 cal
• 2 Pieces Licorice- 80 cal
• Gushers- 100 cal
• Total Calories- 880 Calories

Mmm, it didn’t seem like I ate much :/ I guess I sorta went over board on calories >.< But, it’s okaye. I ate not all that good yesterday and I still went down a pound. So I’m not bothered. If I’m down a pound tomorrow.. wow I’d be happy and surprised. (: Let’s just hope it works ! Last night.. I went to a party. It was my other best friend’s 16th. He had a huge party with literally like 100 people or more. It was really fun! And yes..I did get drunk lol. Blahh calories.. :/ Anyways, me and my ex, J, ended up hooking up again ! And it went farther ;O Not like THAT far..but it was more then we’ve done before ‘dating and not dating’. The thing is though, I really like him. He makes me feel so amazing and almost the sense of being beautiful for once. I love the feeling. I really want to date him again, but who knows honestly. Once I have my new body.. I’ll be on top of the world. Once I get started on Turbo Fire that is and when I get it ! Sheesh, these things seem to take along time to arrive :/ Even though it’s only been a day ! Hahah, guess I’m to overly excited about the whole thing. Who wouldn’t be though if they knew they were going to get the body of there dreams for once ! It’s going to be so hard though. I’m going to have to commit majorly and no backing down. The schedule says you have to exercise 6 days a week with one day of rest. The classes last from 30-60 minutes. It’s not easy though, its super intense cardio. The program says it burns up to 9x more fat then normal cardio and also when your done, it keeps burning more calories 48 hours after your done that workout. It’s so crazy ! I don’t have that much weight to lose.. around 15-20 pounds FOR SURE. Turbo Fire will defiantly help me get there, as well as a healthy diet. But enough of my Turbo Fire obsessiveness lol (: I’ll update tomorrow or a couple days. Hope you guys are doing great out there ! Keep pushing through, you’ll get there soon ! Starve On (:

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

1:40 PM

Amazing News ! My mom bought me Turbo Fire on Ebay ! Yaaay, at last, I’ve been waiting since the beginning of summer to buy it. The results after wards are incredible from what I’ve seen. The main instructor is my favorite, Chalean Johnson. She is so motivating and inspiring ! So many things come with Turbo Fire. You guys should really check it out. You get 12 different workouts, eating plan, exercising calendar, resistance band, measuring tape, motivation CD, online support with Chalean and other coaches. You also get this mini intense program that is 5 days long, its called 5-day Inferno and you can lose up to 10 pounds. I think the whole plan for you to get fit//lose weight is 2 months long. Afterwards, you can continue on with it :) They have all the meals and snacks sorted out for you even all the nutrition facts ! I’m soooo soooo excited to get started ! It will be here in 5-7 business days. YAY. But, I’m going to go paint my toe nails loll, pce (: <3

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

7:45 PM

I’m back, finally. I ate worth shit down there.. all we did was eat out at fatty greasy restaurants. Well, no more of that. Starting now, no more bad food, seriously. I gained back way to much weight. It disgusts me. I’m going to weigh in on Sunday morning and take measurements and also take a picture. I’m going to be following my plan starting Monday. I’m being so strict about what I eat. I need to change this. I can’t stand being over even 120.. It’s just blah. I’ll be exercising twice a day and eating 5 times a day starting Monday. I’m only letting myself weigh in on Sunday mornings so I won’t discourage myself and go on some random fast or binge. I’ll take measurements and a picture every 2 weeks I think, so I actually will be able to see a difference. I’m aiming to lose around 2-4 pounds a week which is perfectly fine with me. So it will take me around 1-2 months to get to 110. I’m actually really, really excited. I’m also going to buy a guitar and teach myself how to play. I’ve always wanted to learn for the past 2-3 years. I sing lots too, so I could make my own music with my lyrics (: So by October, 31, 2010 or earlier I WILL be 110 pounds for sure or even lower (: After I do the 30 day challenge on the Wii Active, I plan to buy Turbo Fire ! Wooot. It’s expensive.. but whatever it’s worth it. I have every single little detail figured out. I will be committed, I will be determined, I will be motivated, I will be inspired, I will have support, I will be the perfect weight.

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

8:40 AM ( SO EARLY)

I’ve been up for the past hour.. I’m leaving like right now. I just wanted to update my iPod for the 8 hours of driving ^^. I hope everyone is having a fantastic day ! Keep pushing on girls, you can do it (: I just wanted to quickly say goodbye to everyone till probably Friday. Yeah, it’s not that long but I don’t want my closest friends on here being like “Oh no ! Where has she gone? Something bad happen?!” No nothing bad has happened, I’m just going on a little trip to Montana. I’m hoping I’ll have connection in the hotel were staying in. So that way I can at least talk to some of my friends instead of being an outsider for the rest of the week. But I better go ! My parents are nagging at me to get off the computer. Love you all, have a wonderful week (: <3

Mini Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

12:45 PM

Well, I failed. That fasting thing is worthless now. Don’t get all excited about losing weight then go back to eating thinking you’ll stay that weight. Sorry guys, but it just doesn’t work. Your better off eating healthy foods 5 times a day and exercising everyday to lose weight. If you keep that up and make it a habit not only will you lose weight, but you will also burn all that fat and tone up. You just need to put the effort in it ! It does work. My sister came down this weekend and she weighs 126 pounds and she is also 26 years old. She just eats healthy and exercises. She’s lost a lot of weight just by doing that. It works I promise you that. I’ve come up with an everyday plan during school for eating times, exercise times, and exceptions to what I can have. I’m actually excited ! I know I will lose weight during this. It’s proven (: I’ll make a page for what it looks like so you guys can check it out and maybe even try it. Back to why I’m so angry. Well… I now weigh 124 pounds. HORRIBLE. It’s disgusting. Fasting works, it does but as soon as you go back to eating it just goes down the drain. All that effort you put in to not eating hardly anything during the days you could have been losing weight by eating healthy meals and exercising everyday and keeping that weight off ! Okaye, I’m done with my ranting about fasting, onwards. Kaye ! Guys, I’m not going to be here until Friday. I have to go with my sisters till then while my parents go to the states. So sadly, I won’t be able to update :/ I might be able to get on Msn on my iTouch but it depends if I can get Wi-Fi. I’m leaving tomorrow so this will be one of my last posts till Friday :/ I’m going to miss reading everyone’s blogs ! I’ll have to read them all when I get back. I hope your all doing great on losing weight (: You can do it ! Love you all ! <3

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

8:00 PM

So sorry to my friends on here that I haven’t really talked to in the past 2-3 days. I feel as if I failed myself honestly. This whole weekend I’ve ate the worst foods. I know I gained some weight back. I don’t know what weight I am till tomorrow morning for sure. I’m so nervous. I should have just stayed home instead of going to my friends.. I could have been at 115 on Monday ! UGGH, it pisses me off so much. I feel so FAT FAT FAT. Also.. my parents are going to Billings, Montana, US, until Thursday or Friday. My sisters are down and they are visiting till tomorrow or Monday. I have to choose to either go with my sisters back to where they live or to Montana till whenever my parents get home. THIS SUCKS. How am I suppose to stick with my plan… ? What about exercise ? You don’t even know how mad I am right now. August, 30th, 2010 I start my plan. Working out for 30 minutes or more everyday after school. I need to make it become a habit. On weekends I think I’ll exercise for Saturday and have a rest day Sunday. I’m going to be using my Wii Fit, Wii Fit Plus, Wii Active, The Biggest Loser, Turbo Jam, Tony Horton Total Body Collection and my Treadmill. I think I’m going to do the Wii Active 30 day workout plan. They get it all sorted out for you, and put together a plan just for you to lose weight. So when my first day of school starts, I’ll start that and also do treadmill everyday and see how that goes when the 30 days are up. I’ll of course record my weight before and after and see how it goes. I know if I stick to this and eat low calorie healthy and good quality food everyday as well as keeping active I will start to lose weight fast. I’m excited to see how it turns out. I mean I only need to lose 10-15 pounds ? Not that hard if I put the effort in it and I will be able to maintain it too ! By then my metabolism will be more speedy then ever and I’ll be burning fat off my body so easily. 110 pounds here I come ! (: I’ll update this tomorrow morning to what’s happening with where I have to go :/ Erggg, stay strong everyone ! DON’T be like me and go on a binge fest weekend, totally not worth it, seriously.

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

I’ve been at my best friends since yesterday night. I’m practically forced to eat.. Guys ! I am so upset I feel like such a massive cow ! D; My stomach is so bloated. I’ve just been eating all these foods at her house then running down stairs and going into the bathroom locking the door and purging. Then I jus eat again! UGGH, she doesn’t even have a scale here! I don’t know what I’m suppose to do. This is a horrible mess. I really don’t want to gain ANY weight back. Yesterday night, we made banana bread, had some of that.. had homo milk WORST fatty milk. I had prune juice here in hopes It would just come out! It didn’t, in the morning I had 3 slices banana bread.. 2 pieces white toast with margarine and jam. Lunch I had chicken wings and juice and fucking Carmel popcorn. Then we went and mowed the lawn for 2 hours. I’m hoping I lost some calories there! Then we got inside I made this cheesy white sauce with noodles had a bit of that, more juice and jello. THEN, had a shower purged it as much as possible, then I get out have more banana bread.. icecream and milk. I lied to G and said I was constipated and had to go to the washroom, I stayed in there for 10 minutes trying to purge it up. I’m still bloated UGGH! I can’t stand this stupid feeling. It is now 7:00 PM and her freakin parents are bringing home mcdonalds.. FML. They got me a stupid cheeseburger. I think I’ll say I feel sick and just won’t eat and and try to purge more :/ Fuck. I hate this. Were going to a party tonight also.. uggghh what if there are hot guys? They will probably think it’s a farm with a pig like me there. I can’t wait to be home tomorrow so I can restrict, restrict and restrict more. They honestly have no healthy food here either.. It’s all junk! I’m going to be so scared to step on the scale tomorrow.. FUCK. :( I really hope you guys are doing well at least :/

3:25 PM

I didn’t get any sleep what so ever last night. Completely none ! On top of that, I got super bad leg pains at night from my hour and half workout on the treadmill yesterday. My stomach wasn’t being so nice either and was hurting way more then usual. I just laid in bed in pain. Till finally, I got out of bed at 6:00 AM and took 3 Tylenol to make the pain go away in hopes I would just be drugged out and sleep. Around 10:00 AM I was just laying in bed. I felt like complete shit and had no energy and my mind was just somewhere else. I needed to see what I weighed. I got up not thinking and went to the bathroom, and then went on the scale. 120.. I started to get majorly dizzy and got that throwing up feeling, I went running to my bed and laid down before I blacked out. I almost started to cry because it was just the worst feeling ever. My mom has brought me a cup of her left over shake. I needed to get something in my stomach before I passed so I took a couple sips. I felt a bit better, went out to the living room and just watched t.v and sipped on apple juice to make that nausea feeling go away. I made my shake quickly so I wouldn’t pass out. I took a couple sips then put it in the freezer. I just woke up from my nap, and now I’m drinking my shake. Here’s what I’ve had today:

• 1 Cup Of Mom’s Shake- 75 cal
• Apple Juice- 120 cal
• Beef Jerky- 125 cal
• Whey Protein Shake/Strawberries- 295 cal
• Celery Sticks with Peanut Butter- 80 cal
• Snack Bread- 35 cal
• 4 Brochette Pizza Pieces- 400 cal (purged)
• Total Calories- 1,130 Calories

• Morning Weight- 120 pounds
• Afternoon Weight-122 pounds (I’m guessing, cause I won’t know)

I wasn’t able to fast today.. it’s just way to hard at this moment. I feel like I’ll pass out if I don’t give my body anything. I don’t think I’ll be fasting tomorrow either :/ So sorry ToFatToBeBeautiful ! I really wanted to but, I feel like complete shit ): We will soon though, promise. Tomorrow I’m having apple juice and my shake to slowly raise up metabolism. Then on Saturday I’ll start to bring in veggies and fruits. I’m sort off of track right now. I’m suppose to be 118 tomorrow. But honestly, right now I could care less. I’m hoping to be 119 tomorrow and I’ll be content with it. I’ll update later though pcee.

7:25 PM

BLAH, I weighed myself after I purged and I’m at 122. Before that though I just chugged a bunch of water. If I’m 120 in the morning still. I’m okaye with it. Yeah I really want to be 115. But I’m going to get my metabolism going again so it will be easier to lose those 5 pounds. I’m making a plan for myself to exercise everyday after school for 30 minutes or more. I’m going to try losing weight the healthy way. I know I’m still going to have troubles with calories and keeping food in my stomach :/ I might end up purging..I hope not. I will keep updating this and tell you guys how everything goes. I’m actually excited ! I can do this. Even if I do only lose 2 pounds each week. That’s fine with me. As long as I’m 110 by December 2010, OR, if I’m 105, that would make my year ! I will accomplish this. I’m going to be eating a lot of veggies and fruit mostly, and the occasional grains and meats. Every school morning I’ll have a protein shake and pack just veggies and fruit for lunch. I want to have 5 mini meals through out the day ! Tomorrow I’m still sticking with my shake and apple juice though. I mean till school starts I’m going to only have a max of 900 calories and minimum of 200. I’ll switch it up through the days. From when tomorrow starts I will be exercising for at least 20 minutes or more daily. But, I think I’m going to my best friends place tonight, (the one that got mad at me for weight losing) We need to talk about things and get stuff sorted out. I’m excited to see her though ! I haven’t seen her in along time. Were going to go on a bike ride tonight too (WOO calorie burning time). I should really end this. I don’t know if I will for sure be able to stick to this plan I just made up off the top of my head. If I start gaining weight.. this plan is going out the window and I’m restarting things. It better damn work >.< But peace guys ! I’ll update tomorrow morning. <3

Thinspirtation

Jeanne xxx

Day 5- Full Shake/Water (250-350 cal)

12:30 PM

1….2….1 !?!? Are you kidding me. I was so excited to hit my second goal of 120 ! Now, I have to wait MORE. Uggh, I’m upset, I’m pissed, and I’m disappointed that I even let myself eat yesterday. What a horrible mistake. Well, no shake today. Only coffee, water and tea. I’m aiming to be 119 tomorrow. I CAN do this. Here’s what I’m limiting myself to for today:

• Coffee- 30 cal each
• Tea- 0 cal
• Water- 0 cal

• Morning Weight- 121 pounds (fml D:<)
• Afternoon Weight- 120 pounds

For my tea, I’m going to put lemon juice (0 cal), cayenne pepper and organic maple syrup. The lemon juice is acidic, it will kind of have a mini detox on my system. The cayenne pepper is a metabolism booster. Maple Syrup ? Hmm, I think that will just keep me going through out the day, and fill my stomach up… I’m going to exercise through out the day. Only burning 100 calories at a time, my body doesn’t have the energy. I’m going to try and do this a minimum of 3 times today and a maximum of 5. So, 300-500 calories. Maybe since I ate yesterday.. is it possible that the food that has been collecting in my body will have to come out ? And I’ll magically lose those 2 retarded pounds ?! I really hope so. But.. I don’t have lax..uggh. We will see what happens..

5:30 PM

So far so good. I haven’t eaten one single thing today, just lots of water and tea. I just speed walked//ran on the treadmill and burned 500 calories. I’m sooo tired ! I almost fainted. It’s harder then you think exercising with an empty stomach. I went on the scale.. I’m still at 121 but I also chugged back around a litre of water so that’s probably why. I think I’m going to have a nap and distract myself from food. I’m hoping to be 120 before 8:00 PM and 119 in the morning. If I’m 120 in the morning, I’m fasting again. And ToFatToBeBeautiful is going to join me (: -updating later-

8:15 PM

After a long nap, I got up went to the washroom and stepped on the scale. It was at 120. For some odd reason though, I don’t even feel happy about it. I mean, yeah I’ve lost 14 pounds so far… but I still feel disgusting. I need to be 110, and depending how I feel then I might even drop it another 5 pounds, but who knows. My parents would probably get really suspicious then and literally start shoving food down my throat. I know for a fact after all this weight I’ve lost that I’m going to gain some of it back. You can’t just lose it this fast and think all your troubles will go away, you’ll be back to your normal eating habits and you’ll be perfect. Everyone on this site hopes for that. It might be discouraging, but honestly.. it’s the truth. There are ways you can do it without gaining the weight back, but you can’t just go to some fast food restaurant after your fast or Very Low Calorie Diet (VLCD) and think you will maintain your weight. You need to be patient and slowly get back to eating normally. No bad foods, but foods that have the good fats, proteins, and nutrients you need. I planned out what I’m doing when I’m at 105-110 lbs so I don’t gain. I found this site, and I think it will solve our problems not to gain anything back ! There’s so many helpful things on it. I’m so glad I found it and want to share it with everyone in hopes that we can all get to our goal and maintain that perfect weight. Here’s the link:

http://www.nowloss.com/how-to-break-out-of-a-weight-loss-plateau.htm

Check it out, just scroll to the bottom and put the weight you want to be at, this is what your going to have to do to maintain that weight. For me it’s going to take me 2 whole weeks by adding 50 calories to my intake everyday. I can do it. But I’m making sure it’s ONLY HEALTHY FOODS, NOT FATTY FOODS. But I’m going to draw on my tablet now. I really really hope I’m 119 tomorrow >.< ! If I’m still 120.. I’m fasting again. Love you all <3 xxx

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

Day 4- Fruit/Coffee/Water (50-150 cal)

12:25 PM

Honestly, who even follows with their plan ? Lol, I haven’t but you know what, I don’t even care ! I’m still losing weight. I mean for the past 4 days of this ‘Personal Fast’ I’ve been really only drinking water, coffee and my whey protein shake. So mainly, no solid foods ! Yeah this was suppose to be my water fast day… I want to stick with my shake though, then least my muscles are getting the protein they need ! And it kicks my metabolism in the ass and makes it run rather then it completely stopping and then I stop losing weight. But onward, I’m feeling great ! I feel refreshed and not one bit tired. No headaches, dizziness, blackouts, or anything scary like that. Oh and I lost another pound WOOT ;D One of my best friends is getting mad at me, she keeps telling me to stop losing weight and that I’ll look gross. Uhmm, well I’m feeling amazing every time I lose a pound and see my stomach and legs shrink in the mirror. Oh well, I’m doing this for me, and no one else. Here’s what I ate today.. UGGH:

• 1 Cup Of Coffee- 30 cal
• Whey Protein Shake- 295 cal
• What I Put In My Shake:
• Protein Scoop- 140 cal
• 1/2 Cup Skim Milk- 35 cal
• 1 Cup Water- 0 cal
• 3 Strawberries- 46 cal
• Half Small Banana- 35 cal
• 50 Blueberries- 39 cal
• 1 1/2 Cups Borscht- 150 cal (My stupid dad is getting suspicious and made me eat ! ugghh! >.<)
• Piece of Chocolate- 24 cal
• Chip Things- 30 cal
• Total Calories- 504 Calories
• Calories Burned- 150 Calories
• Calories Today- 354 Calories

• Morning Weight: 121 pounds
• Afternoon Weight: Unknown, either 122-121 pounds ? Couldn’t check.

At this rate of me losing weight, I should be at my goal in 11 days ! That would be so wonderful ! (: I’ll be updating later tonight, peace & love <3.

3:10 PM

My calories are sort of higher today..it made me feel guilty so I ran/walked on the treadmill for a bit. I wanted to lose at least 100 calories off my intake for today. Now I’m at 225 calories for today. I might go on the treadmill later today to lose another 100 calories. I don’t want to exercise to much because it isn’t good when your fasting soooo, yeah.Mini Challenge for you guys, do 50 sit ups with out stopping. Take a 10 second break then do 10 push ups. Another 10 second break, then do 30 tuck snaps, take a 15 second break then run on the spot for a full minute ! RIGHT NOW !! I’ll even do it with you, just so I can burn some extra calories ;D -updating later-

8:45 PM

I blame my dad for my mini binge.. He’s the one that made me eat ! Rrrrrr. Me and my mom watched Letters to Juliet, and of course she brings outs snacking food.. chocolate. I had one single piece though ! That’s it. Then my mom started to make popcorn, I went in the pantry for I don’t even know why ?! And I had a couple chips, but there good for you sorta. I mean for 20 chips its only 60 calories and 2 grams fat. I had 10 of them. I could smell the popcorn, uggh ! So I chugged a bunch of water back and ran downstairs. I know if I stay up there I will eat the damn popcorn. I’m staying downstairs till I have to weigh myself before I go to bed. Then I’ll come straight back down, then when I’m sleepy I’ll go to bed. I weighed myself a little while ago.. I weighed 122 ! That is horrible D; I’m suppose to be 121. I’m scared I’ll be 121 in the morning. I’m suppose to be 120 in the morning dammnit ! I swear to god.. if I’m not 120 by morning, I might break down and start to exercise hardcore till I faint. Please please please be 120 in the morning. *crosses fingers*

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

Day 3- Full Shake/Water (250-350 cal)

12:30 PM

Fasting today with BackToSquare1 ! Well, kindaa, it’s more of a getting ready thing to fast only with water for tomorrow ;P I know it says no coffee for this day.. but I had one cup. I made my full shake for the day. I only had a a couple gulps of it to fill my stomach. I’m saving the rest for through out the day in case I get hungry. It’s in the freezer at the moment as I speak. (: But, that’s all I’m having for today ! Here’s my stats as of now:

• 1 Cup Of Coffee- 30 cal
• Whey Protein Shake With Skim Milk/Water/3 Strawberries- 224 cal
• Total Calories- 254 Calories

• Morning Weight: 122 pounds
• Afternoon Weight: 122 pounds

Ohhh yeeeee, lost a pound ! I love watching that number go down. Only 7 more pounds to go till I reach my goal ! Then it’s onto my other goal of 110 pounds. So 12 pounds till then (: Almost there ! It just keeps getting closer every day. The bad thing about fasting//eating hardly anything in the day, it seems as if time is in ultimate slow motion. The day just lingers on forever and never seems to end. I hate that… Right as of now, my stomach feels full. But not the, “Omg ! I need to make this horrid feeling go away !”-runs to the bathroom- More like the, “Hmmm, I don’t even feel hungry ! Stupid brain thinks I actually ate something…. sweet!” I like the feeling, it makes realize I’m finally getting really close to my goal that I thought would take forever to overcome. I proved myself wrong on that one. 12 pounds gone, another 7-12 to go. (: I can do this ! Wooooot. I’ll update this tonight, peacee <3

9:15 PM

Overall, my day went good ! I stuck to my plan, and didn’t cheat at all. I’m proud of myself (: I wasn’t dizzy or anything like that. I hardly even got hunger pains, there slowly starting to disappear. I distracted myself with doing loads of laundry and hanging them out on the line. I even went to the extent of cleaning the kitty litter.. BLECK! But my mom was happy that I was cleaning around the house, I think she really appreciated it. Also, I have a crazy amount of energy, and I’m not one bit tired. Tomorrow will be my ONLY water fast with BackToSqaure1, I know I can do it, just am going to have a lot of will power. I’m still at 122, but that will change tomorrow morning (: Hope everyone’s sticking with the plans ! I’m going to go watch a movie now, see you all. xxx

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

Day 2- Fruit/Coffee/Water (50-150 cal)

2:37 PM

Hmm, so this first day went pretty well. I mean I wasn’t really hungry through out the day until very late at night. Yesterday I had two ‘bigger’ cups of coffee in a row = not a good idea. Yeah I felt like I had loads of energy ! But my hands were shaky and I just couldn’t stay still. Then when my sugar rush from the coffee ended I got this really gross dizzy feeling, I had to take nausea pills to make it go away. I also drank water all through out the day, that should be an obvious thing (; Anyways, onward with today:

Morning Weight: 123 pounds

Afternoon Weight: 123 pounds (ERRG)

I’ve had coffee so far this morning. My mom made her protein shake and there was some left, maybe around 2 cups. So instead of having my fruit, I’m going to have that. It has WAAAYY more nutrients in it then one single piece of fruit. On the plus side, there’s blueberries, strawberries and a banana compacted into this shake..yum ! I’m not going to have it till later though, because I’m full from the coffee ;P It’s just sitting in the freezer waiting for me to drink it <3 The time will come soon enough ! Honestly, when I drink coffee I have no appetite what so ever.. so it might be a couple hours before I actually drink it. I made a back up plan just in case I get hungry, and sort of make sure my metabolism doesn’t just stop. Every 2-3 hours I need to have something to eat, yeah it’s sort of breaking the fast but not really. In the end I’d rather lose the weight then have my body try to store as much fat as possible ! But, trust me guys, I’m not going to scarf down some fatty greasy food. It will be just a mini snack, as in like 5-10 grapes, some spoonfuls of jello (I made jello the other day and I forgot it in the freezer.. it’s thawing in the fridge.. rrrrrr). It’s just foods with hardly any calories so my body has at least something to burn. We will see how it goes…

Onto another little subject, ( Sorry for the random rambling, I tend to do that lots ^^) I can see that my stomach has gotten quite a bit smaller since the 11 pounds I’ve lost so far. It’s flattening out ! Such a beautiful sight ! But, I mean it could start to concave anytime soon ! That would be nice. I’m more worried about my legs. I want that freaking gap right now ! >.< I love it, it makes you feel as if your standing on top the world ! ( Yeah, I want it THAT bad, I’m even thinking about conquering the world ) And when you walk, your legs don’t even touch each other, no rubbing, gripping or getting stuck to the other fat leg. It’s so graceful xxx. Soon it won’t just be a fantasy ! It will be a reality. YAY. (:

I’ll continue to update this today, Also, Back to Square 1 and Too Fat To Beautiful, I love you guys so much ! You have been such fantastic supporters ! You inspire and motivate me to do better and get through the day. You both are such strong girls, and your doing a wonderful job. Stay strong (: We will all get to our goals soon ! Btw, get on msn asap ! (: I can’t wait any longer to talk to you ! Hehe <3 xx.

And all you ladies & gents that read my blog, don’t give up, every day is one step closer to your goal. You can do this !

8:09 PM

What I had today for Day 2:

• 2 Cups Shake (under half)-200 cal
• 20 Grapes- 60 cal
• Coffee- 30 cal
• 1 cup soup- 75 cal
• Cucumber Slice-2 cal
• Total Calories- 367 Calories

Meh, not bad I could’ve done without the stupid soup and cucumber slice >.> Oh well. I still need to weigh myself before I go to bed. I’ll do that later (:

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx

Today, is my official fasting day. Or, since I downed a bunch of food yesterday, it’s the start to getting all that out ! Plus lose some extra weight ;) I don’t want my metabolism to completely slow down and stop burning calories, so I came up with my own personal fast (: -

• Day 1- 1 Cup Shake/Blueberries/Coffee/Water (150-200 cal)
• Day 2- Fruit/Coffee/Water (50-150 cal)
• Day 3- Full Shake/Water (250-350 cal)
• Day 4- Fruit/Coffee/Water (50-150 cal)
• Day 5- Full Shake/Water (250-350 cal)

I’ll be updating this every day with my morning and afternoon weight along with my progress and how I feel both physically and emotionally. If anyone else wants to follow this plan, feel free to do so (: I haven’t tried it before, but instead of fasting with just water for days, I added in coffee, fruit and my protein shake. This will make it a hell of a lot easier to get through, and also won’t put your body into starvation mode. Which means after I finish my fast, the weight I lose, I won’t gain back right when I start eating again. But when you fast with just water, your body goes into starvation mode, where it starts to use up your fat for energy. But when you decide your done your fast then go back to eating, your body takes every bit of fat and sugar from that food and stores it in your body, making you gain weight. Also, during water fasts, you usually get the dizziness, headaches and sometimes blackouts. So I’m hoping this new technique I have come up with, won’t do that ! But, we will see how it goes (: These are my stats as of Day 1:

• Morning Weight: 124 pounds
• Afternoon Weight: 123 pounds

I ended up eating some grapes and 4 almonds, along with a small soft taco, from taco time :/ I purged it.

I hope I weigh 123 or 122 in the morning, please oh please !

Wish me luck ! (: <3

Thinspiration

Jeanne xxx