My quest to thiness

Just being vegan has helped me loose weight. That makes me happy. I am going to get some diet pills soon. DecaSlim. I need to loose as much much weight as I possibly can ASAP! Nothing tastse as good as thin. Total cliche, but it’s true. Once I restrict for the next month, I think I might be ready to just stop eating all together. I need to be very careful though so my boyfriend doesn’t notice again. He’ll make me stop and once I get going again, I can’t stop. I have to reach my goal. I need to be 90lbs.

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140. Why do I let this number define me? I wish I knew…

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I totally failed today! My boyfriend and I ate spicy vegan chick’n “wings” and curly fries together. I can’t help, but to eat around him. I don’t want him to worry about me. There is nothing to worry about, but when he is upset, I get upset and I hate doing that to him. I love him so much. He kind of already knows about my issues and he wishes I would stop. I can’t and I wont. I wish he would realise that I need this. I am just going to run it off and start over fresh tomorrow. Everything will be okay. My goal weight is so close, but slip- ups like this make it seem furthur away.

Karma Police- Radiohead

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Diet plan (July 30, 2010- September 1, 2010)

Breakfest- Chiquita mini banana= 50 calories (even though I usually don’t even eat breakfest.)

Lunch- Celery= negetive calories

Dinner- Chiquita mini banana= 50 calories

Exercise plan

Jump rope- 30 min. after breakfest

Walk to school

Run home and back on off hour

60 min. walk after dinner

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