My Journey To Thin

They fuck everything up! i survive through the day on water and one hot chocolate when BOOM sausages, mashed potato, a tonne of vegatables and gravy, I HATE not knowing how many calories I just ingested, the thought of it makes me sick

i simply cant tell my family about my ED because they will never let me live it down, things would be even worse if  i confessed.

I often consider making myself sick but i have a great fear of the unknown, altho i suppose if its between facing my fears or remaining fat forever and never being truly happy i would give it a try..

I’m off to google purging now ¬.¬

Today is the day i begin near starvation for 40 days. I cant completley starve myself as my mum doesnt know about this so she feeds me an evening meal…which i HATE! but its not worth the stress on her so i might as well keep quiet about it ¬.¬

Today I tried a Salt Water Flush to no avail, i’m about six hours in and still no sign of a bowel movement so i guess i didnt do it right? aw well, its probably something i wont be trying again anytime soon O.o the taste was god awful. Heres a link to the instructions i followed in case you want to try it for yourself  Click!

Things I’ve Eaten/Drank Today..
~ 3 pints tap water
~ 1 Litre salt water flush
~ Hot chocolate, with quarter milk no sugar

That works out at about 190 calories, out of my 500 calories a day method. But i’m not done eating yet (evening meal -sigh-) so i’ll post back here later

bye for now!
-Em

Hi,

before i start to write this blog i would like to state that i’m a normal happy girl, who by no means suffers from any psychological damage or trauma. All the decisions i make at this stage in my life are personal preference.

ABOUT ME…
I’m your average, 17 year old girl currently residing in South West G.B with my family of five. After a recent drop out of Sixth Form, i am now unemployed. I started this blog to keep record of “my journey to thin” and through various methods hope to offer guidance and tips to other girls like me.

My name is Emily by the way x